so it has been a really long time
a lot of things have changed since last we blogged
one great thing is that all is well with the baby girl we are expecting
she has had lots of looks and all docs involved say that she looks splended
so there is a huge relief as the things that they said before about her heart and other things were pretty heavy and there was a lot of stress there…
secondly we have decided to move- again.
damn it.
it is not far from here, just a few hours but i was sort of loving this place and we had found that church that we liked so it is a bitter sweet thing and the timing just sucks. we will wait until just after the baby comes but it is still a major drag.

As for the pain the last trimester seems to be somewhat easier and we are much less meds than last time so this is good, i am just ready to go into labor already…com’on baby girl!

anyway, there is another long list of things to get done before the baby to be ready for the move and this stresses me out, but hey we have been here before have we not? i am getting too good at moving.

I am eager to find a little home to stay in for more than a year, to have the time and space to plant an herb garden and tomatoes and maybe even flowers and to make tidy and cozy and safe for our little ones…

random thought…
to snip or not to snip?
that is the question.
hubby and i are back and forth on this issue. this baby was the test right to see if we had all the same health problems as with the first baby that we had and it has been not so bad but bad still and at our last visit with the OB we talked about which of us is getting um snipped…that morning we had decided that it would be hubby  if all goes well and the vbac is a success but at the docs office we decided that if i do have to go back under the knife that they would just go ahead and tie my tubes but a few days later hubby starts asking me if i might want to wait and see if i change my mind.  my response of course was, i thought this one was the test? i am not sure i can go through the pain for all those months with two little kids to take care of…

so what do we do?
is it irresponsible to have more babies when the pregnancy is so hard and dangerous? at this point i am just not sure. any thoughts?

peace and grease,
a very hormonal and stressed woman