Sally’s Friend
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guilty pleasures
I know
But it is one of my guilty pleasures
I also like to eat chocolate and drink a nice glass of chardonnay
Together
While watching Men in Trees if at all possible
as well as unpacking
so much laundry
hmm
I suppose that it is not reality that I am looking for while I unwind here
enough
I meant to tell you about the car
About the back seat really
About cold feet in socks and legs thrown over seats
And about the knitting needles and attempts at making small things in the preparation of big things
I meant to tell you about the music of my generation playing in our ears
And there were the changes in scenery
And warmth wrapped in a nippy breeze
About dirty carpet in old Super 8 motels and about bad food when you are oh so hungry
I did mean to say so much about these things and more
However
While I was listening to a song from before
I remembered the microphone
The title
The things that I thought that it meant
The fear that everyone could see in our eyes
Those of us so eager but so unsure
The ladder to no where
Where did I think that it would get me?
Or what did I think that it would give me?
Or make me?
It did not make me worth more
Or better
I think that there is no ladder
It was just a way of thinking
Or living without much thought
I could not have admitted it then
How it was
But now I see
I believed that I was less
Or less than most
That I had something to accomplish
Something to prove
If only then to myself
In my fear I tried my best
To disprove a lie
I was always enough
Just like you
Enough
God in all the minutes and meals and rooms
the truck is reserved
there is a date set
the test was passed
most of the boxes are packed
the baby is healthy
the recruiter is satisfied
the winter is nearly over
there is the promise of Spring
i feel scared
and relieved
and determined to be wise
about everyhing
it is such a big move
granted, to much more familiar ground
but still, so big
one can’t help but feel a little frightened
God, please help us there
for safe travel
and strong hearts
to find a church home
to make a home for Skye
and for each other
to do something
for others
and thank you Father
for the help we have been given
it is so much
and so real
and so practical
You are there in all the minutes and meals and rooms
Thank you
Amen
