i do not want to miss all of the moments that come with having a baby
like the first time he manages to pull his toes into his little mouth
or the first time he roles over or says mama

i cannot imagine missing those things
but i have to get a to work or we will always be that family that lives in that nice couples basement
the smiles will surely turn to frowns
the milk will sour
on both ends no doubt
simply because it is never right to stay too long

its a terrible feeling
there is a perceptible fear of the worst
and there is the pull and weight of necessity

what do you do then?
it sucks