Sally’s Friend
Just another WordPress.com weblogArchive for May, 2007
up and able to handle the screen again
one hundred and twenty days until the baby comes
enjoying a peanut butter sandwich this morning
feel o-k-a-y
not great
but better than most days
have actually lost more weight
am frustrated
this is really the worst time i have ever had
have never been this sick
or this helpless
we have really learned who our real friends are
people can be so great
or so thoughtless
and really- it is not as expected at all
but that is just a small thing
i have been thinking about how i might have been
how i want to be to others in need
we are so grateful for the kindness shown us
so thankful for the care
the baby moves a lot now
he is strong and big
more later
am tired now
trying not to do too much too quickly
but that is hard for me 
much love and respect!
PS
yeah Godwin!
no one to be angry at
last night i was so frustrated
lost my dinner
again
the pain was moving back in starting at one end
moving to the other
so tired of this
so ready for health again
can’t seem to gain weight
for the baby growing inside of me
my whole body aching from the sofa and the bed
i was so angry
just before sleep last night
telling L that there was no one to be angry at
no one to blame
then it struck me
i blame the devil
the thief
the taker of so much
am so angry
i damn him
God deliver us (i screamed in my own head)
God defend us ( i continued)
God help us ( i pleaded)
heal us ( i asked)
fight for us (i demanded)
we have done all that we can
we do what the doctors say
we fight every day to hold onto hope
we hold each other up
we lean on the God that we cannot see
