Today I have the entire day off from work
yea!

I slept late and wish that I had been off yesterday to sleep

the phone wakes me

R needs to come over and use the shower
I watched a show on immigration workers in Florida while I waited for her

then after getting coffee I watched a show about mercy ships while she showered and tab drifted to sleep on the sofa

some strange thing happened while I watched
I was not repulsed (by the lives portrayed there in the workers- because i have been so jaded by all things yw)
I was interested
I was even moved a little by the difference that the few were making in this big and crazy world

I sat outside to finish my coffee and listened to the wind gentle in the branches
watched the leaves move from side to side
soaked in the blue veil that covers us
heard the birds sing softly
smiled at the calm way that the neighbors argued about hamburgers on the grill
and felt Father’s hand come and do a little moving around inside this heart

I want to be, in this world, what I am meant to be

more on this later
time to go get our hair cut