Do you think that you can remember me when the days are full and the months have passed by with thier relentless procession and noise? She shook her head, no.  he knew that this would be the answer and he turned without speaking and went the other way, away from her, away from everything.  She bit her bottom lip and held in the wretched words, the words that she screamed inside her stobborn head, I need you too, i do! Please don’t leave me!

instead she opted for the cowardly whisper…’ I won’t forget.’

He was gone in the time that it took for her to decide she could be strong.  She was alone again and happy to be feeling so blasted strong.  She went on to her life and he went back to his life and they lived wretched miserable lives apart from one another, this of course was true until he met someone who really was strong and then he lived happily-ever-after (as happily-ever-after as any human can anyway).  The end.

awwwwwwwwwwweeeee,

Remember when we would read the fairly tales (ok watch the video cassettes) and they would end all happy.

somewhere down the line

the world has crushed that in us and built up in its place a dream of something better for all of us

i do not know what that is

i know life is not fairly tales

but dag, what the heck is it then?

is this it?

is ti really???

I just read Nancy Liaw’s xanga sight and fell in love with the way she expressed all this confusion between the sexes. We make men feel like ’girls’ and hate them for it. we can’t stand to be treated like ‘women’ and we long all desperate for it.  we do not know what we are supposed to be and we want men to be whatever they are not- until they are that and then we turn again.  God help us all.i am not angry- just felt to vent a bit and ask Friend to help us all- that is all.

i love nancy and am sooooooooooooooooooo freekin proud that she is brave enough to say all the things that i have faught for years to bleepin hide inside of myself.  hurray for nancy! 

ps girl, someday we will both be able to really love that wretched david banner!

me 

more later, and next time it may even make some sence. peace.