Sally’s Friend
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mulling it over again…
there is a quote i read- it is as follows-
The guys name I will add later said this:
“Don’t ask what the world needs but do what makes you come alive because the world needs people who come alive.” (Paraphrase something very close to that)
The speaker today asked us to think about what we are passionate about.
What could you do all day all day?
What do you think about?
This is what reminded me again of the quote …I had been kind of mulling over it for a couple of weeks…
I wrote the following in my journal today.
“Is there any one thing that I love to do- always think about- could do all day- everyday?”
I started making a list of sorts.
Reading
Learning
Contemplating
Write about
Tare apart
Look at from every angle and find out exactly what it is
Talk over
That is it.
I made another list.
I love kids- teaching and caring for
Loving, accepting and helping them
I love to write
To read
To search and sift through
I love travel
I love change
I love to share Jesus with others- in every way
Then the prayer:
Father, how can I live for you and obey you, and do the thing that makes me come alive?
a poem i think
something from a page much more personal- thought it appropriate for today- for this day- Bless you, me
i let the truth slip out of cracks at first
i let it seep out from the corners of my mouth
i let it fall from my eyes like leaves off of branches
I let it flow in the night wrapped up in the safety of my dreams
but today i let it flow like honey
let it be
as it were
truth
hm
Hi.
I wonder if anyone reads these anymore.
My greatest strength
My greatest weakness
This is week eight
It is going well. Ahhhhhhhh! I just remembered something undone. Need to take care of it.
Next week we will be taking trips and working in the streets
In about five weeks we will be taking a little trip
We will be out for two months and I wonder now how I will do with silence of that length of time.
I miss you
BHM
Alamo
CFN
Calv Temp
You all know who you are.
There has been a great change in me since I left and I hope that it is not one that is reversed when I come across those lines and boarders again
When I fly over those oceans
When I knock on old doors
I hope that the strength of mind and (I hope) strength of (Godly) character is not due to my Christian surroundings.
It is my hope that I can accommodate again a country of my mother tongue, her sounds, her noises, her motives and smoky rooms.
ministry what?
This Written the last week in FEB 2004
A few days ago we hit the middle mark for the lecture phase and we will go on outreach April 12-June 12. The students are doing well but there are struggles as expected and that is what we are here for. We hold hands, pray for, listen to and above all point them to Jesus. I learned some important things about myself last week-had a bit of revelation that I will share below.
NEWSFLASH
I am not very good at this (discipleship). No, not all together accurate, I am good at it but it is a challenge. Recently in a class the teacher had us all write our name then she had us switch hands and do it again. It was strange to use the hand I do not write with, downright hard but I managed to write my name quite well, it even looked ‘creative’ considering I am an expert at it (writing) with my right hand.
That is what I mean when I say that I am not so good at this (discipleship), I can do it, God works through me (yeah!) and it even looks kind of ‘creative’ but I am better in projects that help the people rather than ‘with’ people. How do I know this? Well, let me give you an example of how it is done.
EXAMPLE
In December last year and the year before during ‘Christmas Outreach’ my job was behind the scenes with a schedule, maps email and telephone connections. It was the best! At the base I was working hand in hand with a small group of leaders whom I have known since moving to Asia and this provided me with a small close group of people that I have grown to trust. I was meeting new people (Hong Kong Christians) through email and phone (and on some outings) and this brought me close to the people of the country that I live in. I had a schedule and I created charts and (mostly) alone in a nice quiet office I was able to bring the evangelism teams and the Hong Kong Christians (translators) together to do a great work all over Hong Kong! And that was real ministry to Hong Kong.
WHAT”S GOING ON?
Why am I telling you all of this? Am I just patting my own back? No, it is just that I realized that somehow I have gotten it in my head that ‘ministry’ is only the ‘out in front, from the stage, people care stuff’. I always knew that support was necessary and even fun but I somehow believed that the other ‘out in front’ stuff was more ‘holy’ and that we should all strive to become that. I am not sure where that line of thought came from and would have told you before today that it is not true but still I somehow believed it, somewhere deep inside. I see more clearly that I have strengths in the ‘support’ and detail areas and these are things that make the other things possible.
CLARITY
Please don’t misunderstand I love caring for the students and this job remains a privilege for me. It is a great challenge and I am (have to be) very dependant on Gods help because it is harder for me. The truth is though that this takes all of my strength and I see that it will be wise not to do (primarily) this type of (job) ministry for the rest of my life. I can be a better asset to the “Mission Field’ working somewhere in the middle somewhere between the ‘project, support stuff and the people care stuff’.
Enough said.
I thought that this was a newsletter but after taking another look I can see that is much nearer to a blog and a rant than anything else.
peace, me
